@GerunKnarlson: My friend, you are never alone. There are actually a lot of people out there with this problem. It's like... something that eats away at you from the inside and only shows when you're super overwhelmed Q3Q! This whole thing has intensified over the last few months, and I assure you, I felt like NO ONE would understand these things cause everyone around me is very talkative and they don't show much fear in speaking.
So don't worry, I made this to vent, get out things I'm unable to verbally say, and to spread the word about social anxiety and what it feels like ;w; You're not alone.